:: Bigjoe's World (Not Elmo's) ::

:: Saturday, March 18, 2006 ::

I didn't get a chance to blog yesterday when i really wanted to but I'm doing it today. It is a must that I blog. The reason why is because after a year of not cutting my hair i woke up, bathed, ate breakfast and then went to the barber shop on just a whim. I was nervous, apprehensive, scared. You name it, i felt it.lol. While sitting waiting for a barber there was this fella with braided hair gettig some lines and I was looking at him getting it done saying that is normally what I do, but 2day would be different since I had the afro out and all combed, waiting to be mauled to death by the machine.(sound like a dramatic story nuh...well that's because IT IS!lol) Anyhow i jump in the seat and the man ask me what I wanted. I told him all off and he asked me how I wanted it, a no.1(bald), no.2(pretty low), fade, caesar. I told him a no.2 and a caesar cut which is just having the same amount of hair all around. So the final moment came and he started whizzing through my head. I nearly cried,believe it or not. While he was cutting it he caught the hair in his and hand showed me it after he cut it all off. Imagine how fast it comes off but yet takes so long to grow to that length. He put the hair in front of me and laughed and asked how I felt, and I just nodded and said it makes no difference now. (at least I didn't cry.lol. shoot)Anyways when i walked out of the barber shop my head felt incredibly chilly. I swear I would get sick any minute, so since then I've been wearing my skully even in 40 something degree weather. Oh well, the price you gotta pay. I feel like Sampson dread. Every once and a while I'd go to pull my hair and realise it missing. yea laugh wunna bitches..i know wunna laughing. I aint cay. My head feel naked as cunt, just hope i don't get weak like the story of Sampson though.lol.
Did something else yesterday too that I had promised to do for my b'day last year but chickened out I guess. I went and got a 2nd piercing in my left ear. Right above the first 1. Looks pretty good to me and it's pretty different to the norm since most ppl now get both ears pierced and for some men it looks a bit girly girly and 2 in 1 year actually doesn't look girly at all. So I guess it came out all good.

I have a short rant as well to let off my chest. Nobody down hey got manners yuh cunt, NOBODY. You does be in the corner stores waiting to pay for your groceries or whatever and everybody from little children to old ass ppl does bore in front you or stand next to you and put their things on the counter or call for what they want live as cunt in front of your face. It don't really matter the race either, cause it happen to me with all kinds of ppl. Up to last night I went to the corner shop to get some ketchup and evap milk and this man was in front of me paying, and this guy came in and went straight to the counter and was therefore standing next to me. So when the owner gave the old guy his change and he was moving, the man next to me call out what he wanted. LLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLoooooooooooooooooooookkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!! I give this man a look out of this world and my ppls that know how my looks could get know that I could get very ugly and vicious looking when I get cruel. The man look at me and then look off quick as if he wasn't doing anything wrong. I tek my things and put them onthe counter and put my money in front of the owner and the owner look at me and ask me if that was all and took the money and then gave me my change. Before I left I gave the man another look and this time he look at me long and I keep staring at he half spanish half white looking fucking ass and was ready to drop some blows in he if he had wanted to start something. Then I quickly remembered that I wasn't at home and that I didn't come to NY to go to prison or to even get a record OR to end up dead. So I walk out the store but still giving the man the stare all the while cause I couldn't let him think now that I was a punk and couldn't hold a stare. But that shit does annoy me for real cause even lil children like 7 and up does see you there at the counter waiting for somebody to finish getting their change and does come in front of you and I does just feel like knocking them with a cuff cross their heads and tell them shape to fuck up and learn some manners. If nothing else, have some manners. Everyday I gotta tell myself look away from things cause they annoy me. If I were home now and somebody actually had the gaul to do that, which has only happened at secondary school in the canteen for me, I'd have to tell them something. But up here you can't tell nobody nothing so I does have to bite my lip and just give the hulk transformation stare. They does only got me cursing under my breath constantly. Unmannerly bitches!!

:: Bigjoe @ 9:49 AM :: | ::
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Well look at this shit. Look how i'm starting a blog by cursing. I came to make a new post but then i realised i made a mistake in a previous blog so went to correct it. Corrected the last blog but yet mistakenly clicked the delete button. Tried to refresh and low and behold it was still lost. Well this made me think of life. Could imagine if your life was just erased a day at a time? Or parts of your life were just erased randomly? I don't know if I thought a bit too much cause yuh know I'm partially crazy, but look how i erased part of my life on the internet though. I gotta go and buy a camera quick and get rid of the camcorder cause I hardly film anything but pictures seem more accessible. Anyways my sick weekend has been lost. Look how a simple mistake turned me paranoid *confused emoticon here*. I should be sleeping and doing this, I guess the caffeine in the pepsi is keeping me up.

I had something to talk about and I've been delaying it for a long time. It's time to talk about Jamaican women. I have 1 who has become a friend and her name is Simone. She used to annoy me from the first time I met her and to tell the truth she still does.LOL. Just not as much as she did. I've seem to become her buddy since she always talks to me about her boyfriend and most women don't do that unless they trust a guy. Anyways, that was just the prologue to say that she's the only jamaican female I've met that I've actually felt that I could tolerate for more than 5 minutes straight. This is because I've met alot of jamaican females since I've come to NY and from interacting with them at school and talking to the fellas there has been 1 major conclusion; they are extremely demanding women. No matter the different personalities they have they just seem to be demanding about everything. If they ask you something as simple as to pass something on a desk for them that they could get themself, AND it's more in reach for them than you to get, they would want to change your mind and make you want to get it before they would just reach for it. They will try anything to get their own way. I don't mean to generalise but on further review with the other guys at school I realised that most of them seem to be like that. It was so shocking to hear even Nigerian fellas say that the only c'bean woman they wouldn't want is a jamaican because in the end they feel like fighting with them like they wanted to fight a man. Well well well. Shocking boy. I've grown up hearing this kinda thing but never experienced it and now I've only have a small fraction of it and heard men with the full stories. I'm not dissing them though cause they are women, and all women should be appreciated; but just like a box of mixed chocolates, we don't like every single type that's in the box BUT, if we are such whores we still prefer some over others by a large amount. If you're not mentally challeneged you would have followed what I just explained. Anyways what's even funnier is that I've asked the jam town girls that I know if they like jamaican men and some of them really didn't. Said they didn't treat them properly but for some reason most of them only get with jamaican men. Interesting. If I actually knew alot of bajan females in NY I'd ask them these same questions to see what they'd tell me, but unfortunately from asking the people around me what they think of bajan women, men and women alike believed that bajan women were quite sexy but only checked for men if they had money. hhhmm. Sounds like how every1 seems to classify the japanese and korean women. So much generalisation I hear and receive everyday. I could write a book about NYers beliefs on females and males alike and make some good money.

So I will commence my evaluations and see what they tell me about bajan men besides some telling me that all they does do is bull. I don't. I have to tell them most c'bean men come to NY because they do bull and receive immunity up here that they won't get at home. Then I have to quickly add that I'm only up here to finish my education, not to escape.LOL. Gotta stop these fucking ppl quick cause they does generalise too fast boh, next thing yuh know I hear mozzyman like putting the cocky in men asses. (yes I know I can say things very crudely sometimes but hey, every1 knows that's standard when it comes to me.lol.)

Anyways peace and love and stop generalising so much, even though the generalisations seem to be 99.9999% true, at least with the jam town women. Cha.

P.S. Hopefully I don't mistakenly delete this so and so kiss me ass blog. hhhmmpphh

:: Bigjoe @ 11:07 PM :: | ::
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