:: Bigjoe's World (Not Elmo's) ::

:: Tuesday, August 26, 2003 ::

A Day Of Thanks

She's always behind me 100%
Even when i don't seem to even care;
I don't want to show the world what's going on in my brain
But some how she knows and surprisingly I have no fear
I may be harsh sometimes and shut out the world
But no matter what I do or say she's always there
I appreciate her for being so understanding
I also appreciate her for sticking by me when times get tough
When i get all miserable and say i just don't give a fuck!
When it all boils down and I get through my ordeals,
I can look back and she'd be standing right behind me
Good ppl are hard to come by in this day and age
And good friends are even harder
So I will never forget whoever was there for me or made me smile
'Cause i appreciate 1 and all in that order



My blog 2day pretty short..i know wunna mouths would drop from seeing what i just write but ppl u have known me for years know that i used to write a lil something something..evne if it sound bad lol..ut those days finished now but sometimes u does just gotta put down when good thoughts come to mind..
Anyways i love all of my friends...my old 1's i've had for years and my new ones i've met in the last few years, i will always try to make u all happy and give a good laugh but i got gotta thank u all for the same and keeping me sain cause the world aint easy atall..and to soph i gotta thank you for being such a nice person cause i know u would do anything to make certain ppl happy..including me so i appreciate..can't make u think u's get take for granted..anyways i done..i gine and bath the musty skin ( me blushes)hehe and leff this house.

:: Bigjoe @ 2:51 PM :: | ::
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Out Of Control
It's been a few days and i know it must be weird seeing me again so quickly..but unfortunately or unfortunately i don't have much to do so here i am just typing away. I've either been happy or pretty cruel in nearly any and every blog i've written..it shows i'm a pretty happy fella, plus a pretty cruel 1 at times too..a pity i aint green nuh..
Anyways for once instead i'm here with sorrow and a heavy miserable heart. You see in the last blog i talked about receiving papers from university..but such as life would have it..another twist was just made in my life..u see i..well my mother called the university to talk to a woman we were corresponding with..in the past i was told that they have received my repsonse letter to my acceptance letter i received, later after 2 tries i was told that they sent stuff to my address..then in the space of 48hrs i was told by the same woman that they didn't receive any response letter from me :O , plus she had the gawl to ask what papers i was awaiting on cause school was just around the corner...like i didn't fucking know that...i nearly cursed..matter of fact i did, many times..just not loud enough to draw too much attention to myself. I don't know what's up...they totally have me lost and spinning around in circles.
My life's been always full of confusion..brought on by others and some by myself..the confusion brought on by me i've been able to get rid of cause i was in control..but when u aren't in control of stuff and u are helpless it's the worst feeling in the world, and the older i get the less things i seem to be in control of that confuse and irritate my life...it appears i'm fighting a losing battle. as years go by it just gets worst and worst and more complicated...this would be a good time to use my 2 special phrases...

sus muh nigga...it does happen to de besuh we!

:: Bigjoe @ 6:43 PM :: | ::
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