:: Bigjoe's World (Not Elmo's) ::

:: Saturday, May 20, 2006 ::

1 exam has gone and 2 more are left. Friday's exam was pretty easy to me to tell the truth and i really expect to be seeing my A when i check after the semester's over. My hardest courses for the semester are on Monday and Tuesday respectively, and I'm here in the cafeteria at school here studying for one of them. I've been at school trying to study all day with me phasing in and out every once and a while, but hopefully by monday morning I would be fully prepared.

1 thing that had me today though is what made me want to blog. I was studying outside of the library for the afternoon and this girl I know through my chemistry and biology classes came and sat at the same table as me. Rosie is a relatively quiet person but at first I was saying oh no cause she might only distract me with talk or something. Well she didn't and she was quiet and doing her thing, BUT, 1 of her friends showed up who was studying for the same bio course as her and that's when thetrouble began. Her friend has another friend who saw them at the table and stopped by and this friend who stopped by just so happens to be in my philosophy class, aaannnddd, I just so happened to be studying philosophy at that point in time. Stupse. I knew what was going to happen next. Rosie is a Phillipino muslim and the 2 other girls were indian muslims. So what does this have to do with my story you ask? Well from being in the different libraries at CCNY and from seeing them around the school in groups, indians talk real fucking nuff and are very boisterous. These aint the indians at home who like to keep quiet and only talk when they coming at your house to collect the money yuh owe them. Yes! I know wunna bitches don't like to pay the coolie man.lol. um um um. Anyways, the 2 girls talking, talking now and i start to read out loud so that they could hear me to yuh know, keep quiet or move or something. You know the bitches start to talk harder to talk over me?! My most confused face was showing at this point. So then the girl decide to turn to me and ask me what I was studying. I told her philosophy and she asked if she could read my notes. I saw the girl sit and look at me like she was waiting on me to give her my notes that I, Mr. Hoyte was studying from at that point in time. I told her when I was finished studying I'd let her read them(wunna done know I wasn't going to finish reading until she left that table too.lol. Read my ass. she goes to the same frigging class I go to so she should have her notes.) All I wanted to do was ask her if she's a cunt cause I don't know how I could be studying for my exam with my notes and she asking me to stop studying so that she can read my notes. See why I don't like people so much?So now I gone back studying and then she say she was leaving and I was like "yes!" in my mind. But I still get the bulla cause she asked me if she could photocopy the notes now. I know my face gave away the dismay and repulsion I felt towards her. STUPSE. I gave her the notes and before she go and copy the things she want to sit and ask me about certain ideas talked about in class dealing with Plato and Descarte. I cut her off and tell her I gotta leave school so go and copy the notes quick. I did have to go meet my aunt but not at that time. I just needed this girl to get from round me before she rubbed off her weirdness and annoyance on me. So she did it and came back and it seemed she copied my entire note book cause i saw way more than 10 pages of copied notes in her hand. I guess she doesn't take good notes or something. Well i took the book quick, told Rosie I was out and went home to put down my stuff.

So here I am in the cafeteria right now sitting at a really long table. In front of me there are these 2 guys sitting opposite to each other. The 1 backing me is this inidan looking guy and the 1 facing me looks polish like, plus i heard him talking and he has the polish, czhech accent. So when i first saw him I noticed that he had a girlish face but that don't mean a damn thing. But i keep noticing how he kept looking at the indian fella doing his work. Before he study his own work he sitting down looking up at the fella all the time. It reminded me of when a man sees a woman he's interested in and keeps making glances at her hoping that she'd notice him. Then the indian fella went on the cell phone and the fella would not stop looking at him. Oh cunt! I just stop to take a sip of water and when I look up he look right at me and would not look off. He like he know I typing about him.LOL. The way he constantly looking at the fella though is highly bulling. Not a lil bit, but highly. On a scale on 1 -10 with 10 being the highest, he running hard with a frigging 15. Men don't sit down and stare at another man he know all the time so. Like he nervous or something. Ass mussy juicing all now. :S *me shudders* blah. I just grossed out myself excessively. Real botties in NY. No lie. Up here is botty paradise. The sad thing is, is that I seem to be attractive to some of them. :(:S. Real black men in NY are gay and you know they are closests. I would be standing some where and men would be with their woman and i'd see them passing me and looking at me full in my face with the soft look. Not no look of aggression or anything yuh know. Up to this evening I went to meet my aunt at 1 of her work places and I was standing outside and this black man passed me with 2 young kids and he walked pass me casually laughing with the kiddies. Hear the shout! When I look to my right, which would have been where he was after he passed me, I see the man looking back at me dread. I was extremely lost. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. I had to look way quick before he thought I was checking he out or something. I felt like how a woman feels when she passes a man and she KNOWS that when she pass, the man will turn around and look at her posterior(didn't feel like being common there.lol). Man I felt dirty. Dirty, dirty, dirty! I don't understand why I don't catch women jarring me. My self esteem soon fall through the floor if this shit continue to happen. I need to leave here quick before 1 actually try to talk to me. *me shudders again* Dirty!

:: Bigjoe @ 9:13 PM :: | ::
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