:: Bigjoe's World (Not Elmo's) ::

:: Tuesday, October 18, 2005 ::

I think my roomate is on to something. I came home last night with some groceries and found a box of Chips Ahoy in the freezer. I was EXTREMELY puzzled if nothing else. I thought it was an american thing. But then my roomate drew came home and was like WTF?! at it too. So we took them out and began to eat them and they weren't really like icy cold, but cold and nice none the less. When u breathed u would even see a little frost coming out and stuff. Anyways i came home 2night and found them wrapped up in the cupboard, so i guess they didn't decide to put them back into the freezer. I took some and to my surprise they didn't taste as good as last night. I mean they were still fresh and they tasted good, but last night they had that extra sweet taste. I guess putting them in the freezer does do something. Guess i'll have to buy some and experiment again to see.

Recently i've been playing this 1 song all through out the day for the last week or more. I've depleted a complete ipod charge on it b4 and that is a good couple days of charge. I like Daniel Bedingfield alot..i mean aaaalllloottt. The man can sing, but when his sister came out with "I Bruise Easily" i said i'd give her a try. So i have some of her music and she can really sing too, but, she has this song named "These Words" that is more pop than anything else, but the thing has me in a trance. It is the only thing i think that can brighten up my day right now besides a lil Vybz (how the hell Vybz Kartel could brighten up somebody day i just don't know. This song exemplifies exactly how i think and feel. I guess you'd have to hear it to come close to understanding, but sometimes we look to say things and try to so hard to get the point across and really and truly the simplest words may be all that we need since you can see that they're genuine.

I know a few ppl mussy want to know if somebody different writing this page for me now, but no no. I do listen to other things besides calypso and dub. Actually i listen to alot of rock, soft rock and always loved anything close to r&b. So frig wunna!lol J/K!

Natasha Bedingfield - These Words


These words are my own

Threw some chords together
The combination D-E-F
It's who I am, it's what I do
And I was gonna lay it down for you
I try to focus my attention
But I feel so A-D-D
I need some help, some inspiration
(But it's not coming easily)
Whoah oh...

Trying to find the magic
Trying to write a classic
Don't you know, don't you know, don't you know?
Waste-bin full of paper
Clever rhymes, see you later

These words are my own
From my heart flow
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
There's no other way
To better say
I love you, I love you...

Read some byron, shelly and keats
Recited in over a Hip-Hop beat
I'm having trouble saying what I mean
With dead poets and drum machines
I know I had some studio time booked
But I couldn't find a killer hook
Now you're gonna raise the bar right up
Nothing I write is ever good enough

These words are my own
From my heart flow
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
There's no other way
To better say
I love you, I love you...

These words are my own
From my heart flow
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
There's no other way
To better say
I love you, I love you...

I'm getting off my stage
The curtains pull away
No hyperbole to hide behind
My naked soul exposes
Whoah.. oh.. oh.. oh.. whoah.. oh..

Trying to find the magic
Trying to write a classic
Waste-bin full of paper
Clever rhymes, see you later

These words are my own
From my heart flow
(Don't you know)
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
There's no other way
To better say
I love you I love you

These words are my own
From my heart flow
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
There's no other way
(There's no better way)
To better say
I love you I love you

These words are my own
They're from my heart
I love you, I love you
That's all I got to say, can't think of a better way
And that's all I got to say
I love you, is that okay...

Soph i think you may understand.

Anyhoo...back to the grind.

:: Bigjoe @ 6:17 PM :: | ::
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Last night at 12.30 or so me and my 2 roomates went to the laundermat to wash out clothes. It had been 4 weeks since i needed to wash anything and i felt good to know that i have enough underwear to last 4 long weeks. I never did laundry so late b4 but i took the opportunity to do it since i wanted to stay up and study. I couldn't really study for my bio test since i rememebered i had a speech assignment to do. How the hell every week i does have an assignment for a fucking core class, i just don't understand that folly. Anyways i did my laundry and got a little bit of studying done; but not enough. I guess that's why 2day during my test i felt a little duncy cause i didn't know the work back to front like i should have. It was a real damn tricky exam and it had me busy for the entire time. i already know a couple things i got wrong but i also know some stuff that i got right. Hope it turns out to be predominantly on the right side of things.
I realised today that i'm beginning to dislike ppl and dislike company in general. I never really cared about having ppl around me but it seems like i'm pretty angry with the world right now. I seem to have a snobby attitude and behaving weird, so i was told this afternoon by 1 of my school associates. I guess i just don't want to hear ppl or want them around me at this point in time. Only when i'm in NY that i seem to turn into some anti social freak, cause i never grew up being like that. Anybody that knows me knows that i'm far as hell from being like that. Guess this place just brings out the cold side of me. Either that or work and other outside factors just get me heated like that. Such is life as i always say. A fresh test wednesday and thurday so more revision and cramming on the board for 2night. lataz

Oh yea..my roomate came back last night and carried his dog for a walk, and when he came back she peed in his bedroom for some reason. He was c-r-u-e-l! I guess she's going through the bad puppy stage where they all rebel and stop doing everything they've been taught..HAHAHA I SAY! That's 1/3 of the stress i got so i feel 1/3 better.

:: Bigjoe @ 8:12 PM :: | ::
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The last couple of days has been a complete disaster. Starting from thursday things just steadily declined. I woke up saturday thinking that since the sun was supposed to be out that at least the heat would make me feel a little better but i guess not. Had track around 10 and had my ass worked to death. It was the first time after practicing so hard that i actually felt like vomitting. I'd laugh at the men who used to do it and say their stomachs were weak but i guess saturday morning i either ate too late or doing cables just totally churn my stomach. But thankfully to my stubborness and not wanting to waste a good breakfast of 3 eggs i held that shit down, sour taste and all.LOL. Anyhow i had a biology review class directly after track and directly after that review class i had to go to my Geochem study group. This is how a sautrday supposed to be? I left my study group now to run home and take my roomate's dog for a walk so she could do her do. You will be wondering how come i'm doing this and i'd let you know that my roomate went out of state from thursday night to return sunday(I still aint see the muddaf.... back here yet) so he asked me if i could look after the dog, with some compensation of course. Since i'm a dog man, plus getting some easy money i said sure. But the fucking joke was on my ass. The dog like she had some diarrhea and when i enter the apartment i smell this thing that was like hot fire. i immediately opened the guy's door and saw her in her kennel looking all sad with pee and soft shit in the kennel. I curse so so and so hard tthat i know the neighbours mussy thought a fight was going on next door. I had take the lil bitch (yes it's a she.lol) out of the kennel, made sure her feet were clean and thing and then carried her to her blanket in the living room and tied her. Proceeded to clean this kennel and it took me an entire 45 minutes to get it done. So it was like 5 something now. Aright now i feeling nasty so i went and bathe, while i was at it i said i would clean the bath too. When i step out the bathroom door i smell this thing. I say i know i had smell bare Clorox and Pine Sol b4 i went in the bath so i was lost. I went and check the dog and the bitch buss uh shite next to she blanket, AND some of it was on the blanket. More swear words coming out my mouth now, cause i real fustrated and cruel as cunt now. I swear i woulda fuck the dog outside through the window. I clean that mess up and decide it don't make sense mopping 1 lil area so i decide to mop and and sweep the entire living room and the hallway. I had put the dog back in her fresh as a baby ass's kennel and i kept checking on her cause i say i gotta get she out of here quick now. So i finish now and sweating and thing. When i went to get the fucking dog now i gone in the room and she get out of the kennel some how and drop some shite RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE FUCK HOLE KENNEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Man WHAT DE RASSHOLE! This dog wanted to convert me into a cat or fish lover yuh cunt. I never had problems like this in all my years of keeping dogs. Thing is back home if de dog shite that aint no biggy. The wind would blow the scent away. But in an apartment??? Hell no,that scent lingers like a dead dog that just burst on the road. Man i try to clean it up quick as cunt now b4 she drop 1 on my new sparkling floor. When i was finished i run out the apartment and tried to get her outside as quickly as possible so that she wouldn't miss and drop none in the lobby nor anything. I carry the dog for a walk and in the first 10 minutes she pee so i say sweet. But cawblen the dog would not shite for nothing, and i wasn't going to carry her back into that apartment without her doing it cause i know she would buss a next load on me and then i would have to give her to the chinese take out around the corner. I had to walk and run this little bitch for a good 25 minutes b4 she drop another shite and even then i was worried. When i get back to the apartment it was minutes to 9. Thing is i had plan to come home in the evening and sleep a bit and then get up to do some revision for my mid terms. I was so was tired, hungry, and sleepy that i say frig the work and put the dog back inthe kennel. Sleep it was for me. Wake up bout 5 something and started to get scared. I was praying i wouldn't open that bedroom door and see her rolling in a ball of shite or something. I couldn't sleep soundly from then. Sigh! Went and checked the dog this morning the first chance i got and she was cool. Went and hold a fresh and come back and see the dog drop a hot piss in the kennel. I nearly pull the plaits out of my fucking head. I was going off yuh clown. Thing is as i typing i laughing at myself, that is how i know i going off. The dog never do nothing so yet since she was here so i can only reason that she felt sickly or something. I cleaned that too and then took her for a walk. For the rest of the afternoon she slept under my chair as i did my work. The lil heifer get up and went some where and then i realise it was too quiet. Just like when a child too quiet yuh know it up to no good, well dogs just like that too. Went in the living room to see what she was doing, and no she wasn't holding a shite! Thank you, thank you.lol. Instead she was tearing up the side of the coffee table. *shakes head* A pitull jaws pretty strong so she had part of the side looking like straw. Kennel it was for her. I haven't checked her since, plus my roomate was supposed to be home by this evening and he isn't here either. So yuh know what?! Fuck he and fuck her. I going in my room and pretend like i forget the dog exist. He will deal with anything when he get home. Never again i keeping his dog for him. Not even for a day dread, cause dogs just weren't made for the city life. None of this cooped up, isolated house life. A dog needs company, something to do, lots of space and most of all, grass so it could shite in when it feel like without ppl like me having to pick it up. Yes i still screw and miserable dammit. I still haven't finished an assignment for monday and my biology midterm is 2morrow and i aint even sure if i know everything. I just waste 10 more minutes typing this but i had to get it off my chest. Now i think i can laugh at my last 4 days and say it was a learning experience. When yuh cunt! WWWWWWHHHHHEEEEEEEENNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:: Bigjoe @ 4:01 PM :: | ::
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