:: Bigjoe's World (Not Elmo's) ::

:: Thursday, October 02, 2003 ::

Sick as a dog is what i am :(...Went work for half the day tuesday and had to leave cause of a very bad headaches, so i knew something was up cause i hardly ever get headaches. Is it just me or since i began working at Town Planning i just get bare sniffles and sickish feelings all the damn time..sick ass ppl does work wid me, that is what. I gotta get out of this shit , for real. Anyways Got home feeling pretty banged up but there was worse to come :(...in a matter of hours i had a fever and the headache was worse than ever. To explain how i felt for the last couple of days would take up too much unated space..sigh

I feel alot better now tho, i'm actually hungry at this minute so i gotta be getting better :), cause as long as i aint hungry i know something is wrong with me tehehe
So i going ot stock up on all the goodies i could find and just try and get this mozzyman back on track!

:: Bigjoe @ 9:57 AM :: | ::
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2day i took a stand and didn't do any work from 10.30 am..boek..i'm a thug..just hope this aint my last week at work :S. 2day was particularly hot for me too..dang, i don't know what's up with the early morning heat but it really aint cutting it tho..for real. anyways another reason i didn't do anymore work 2day was cause i was extremely restless and miserable. was constantly thinking about the past and what i may miss and what i don't want to miss. I was just depressed in all honesty. Didn't even wanna eat my lunch at first..but my stomach started to hurt so i could keep frigging he up so..and u know when i willing to diss my belly something gotta be really wrong with me..sus .

I just want to let some1 know how good a person they are and u honestly wouldn't know they were unless u looked behind that cruel face..and that person is sophia. I for 1 can vouch for u and let the world know that u are a wonderful person to know despite that intimidation that your face walks around with ..lol. sigh..smile

:: Bigjoe @ 8:28 PM :: | ::
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Me and my mother had an interesting convo earlier 2night which opened my eyes some more since i had earlier thought of such things. i just wondered if I'm the only person that thinks this way or they are ppl who can actually see it my way. Here goes nothing.

I don't believe in there being only 1 person out there in the world that is right for any1. I mean sure, we won't be able to get along with every1, butthere will be certain ppl out there that u would be able to co-exist with and learn to love if they were given the chance. You see in my case i like women. unlike alot of men in bim now.but that's another topic lol. Anyways out of all the women in bim there will be at least 4 that would be nearly the same in what i look for in a woman..with each having more or less in certain attributes compared to the other women in what i hold high in value. But u see this is where it get tricky..it's not what u like that makes u want or not to be with some1..it's what u don't like that makes that decision for you. Interesting so far?
So out of these women who all share high points on my list they would each have points deducted because of what i don't like..and it is there that u realise who is good for u because the 1 who stresses u out the least or who u can co exist with the easiest is usually the winner. It isn't about who makes you the happiest, it's about the 1 who makes your life the least unhappy and hard. Now THAT is some reasoning there!

You know what else holds true too...looks aren't everything as ppl say ...but we all know that's talk for the ppl who don't look good..that's why i gotta say it regular too..tehe. but really and truly they are everything cause presentation is key...that's why the lion stalks the sickly, hurt or old wilderbeast.. with out proper presentation u wouldn't be stalked......hhmm..wait tho...that aint sound too correct, but i guess u all know what i mean lol.
I'll ponder some more shit later..de brain like it tired from all the thinking :$

:: Bigjoe @ 7:57 PM :: | ::
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The Breeze is calm, the air is hot, I'm here sweating from typing..... I feel drugged but very lost.

:: Bigjoe @ 8:52 AM :: | ::
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