:: Bigjoe's World (Not Elmo's) ::

:: Friday, September 26, 2003 ::

Just 1 sexy biatch!
St. Philip has it's 2nd Evo 7..P108, i know no 1 cares but me but i pay respect by showing u CWest's beauty of an evo..yum

:: Bigjoe @ 9:20 PM :: | ::
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2day was another quiet and pensive day...i just can't stand my co-worker. Just now i gonig ot see myself cussing him, for real..man see me reading the paper this morning and then going to come right next to me and ask if a criminal on the page aint look like Kobi Bryant..i aint give 2 jucks wuh he look like..just lemme read de damn paper in piece..man is just an annoyance boh
Anyhoo i keep to myself most of the day then so as not to freak out on any1. Had some chinese and leave back a lil lil bit in the fridge and come home and forget it..thing is i had that lil bit for the dog..sus..my black ting never had oriental cuisine b4.

So who gine Bayshore saturday night? I wanted to go but yet i wanted ot be home. :S weird aren't I..anyways i feel like going now since i figure this will be the last fete until Old Years which would be so good. So I feeling it. Haven't been out partying in a while so i wouldn't mind it too much.
On an ending note i feeling miserable and bored still..i'm not entirely like myself. i can be when i'm around ppl but when i'm by myself i realise i'm partially 'unhappy' per say..it al beats me right now cause i don't know what to think...but hey as i always say..such is life!

:: Bigjoe @ 8:34 PM :: | ::
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Oh Yes, the ponder for the day.

Do you ever realise how complexes can really frig up your normal life tho..for instance:
if u afraid of heights and your job interview in a tall building u going to get on pretty duncy when u being asked question and all u can see is bare sky through the windows.

numero dos: being afraid of insects and hence on 1 of your escapades around the house u see 1 and start to freak and suddenly fall, paralised for life cause of a fucking grasshopper.. sus.

numero tres: the same sex..either it be you're homophobic and end up pulling in nuff homosexuals, oooorrr, u afraid that some1 of the same sex going to take away your loved 1, or more specifically u don't think u compare much to your man/woman's ex...

All these complexes have 1 thing in common...fear. Get rid of the fear, and maybe even the self esteem issues and things wouldn't look so glum anymore..it worked for me :)..only thing i got a complex about now is breasts :D ..wait, that aint a good thing ? :S

:: Bigjoe @ 9:13 PM :: | ::
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2day was a quiet day . Did my work, didn't speak much to any1, kept to myself and I was all good. I strongly believe that a man who works in the same department as me is slow..i mean down right retarded slow...the man never ceases to amaze me each day with his naivety, slowness, hesitation and not to mention my all time favourite...annoyance. I'd be reading the morning paper at a desk and he would leave what he is doing to come and stand right behind me to look at an 'interesting' pic which caught his eye on the page..talk bout annoying..i does feel like tekking the man head and driving it into the desk dread. well well well. he lucky me and him didn't pitch marbles or it would be all over..lol

The gearbox which i received for my car isn't the correct gearbox so i carried it back 2day and got back muh money..i'm so disappointed that i didn't get the ight 1..sigh..
thing is i call bright and early in the morning to ask if i could refund it and a man tell me no..only exchanges are done. So i thinking now that i loose out on my money and that i it pretty unfair to be like that, when it hit me to look at the invoice..i look at the thing and see no refunds after 5 days..muddafucka was barely trying to juck put my 2 eyes. muh third eye, and muh ass..fucking thief. :@ ..I so sorry i didn't get his name or when i went back i would have ask them to tell him something about that tho, cause he might only cause that place to suffer from The Arsonist.mmuuhahaha.
so now it reason that 10% back on all refunds so i say man that aint too bad..i would still get back most of muh change...but somehow the woman end up giving me back all of my money ..so no complaints here..man i start the old lil suzuki van and move it from de place..lata biiiiAATTCHHHH!!!
So getting back my money was mozzymans only good thing for the day..the rest of the day now i was just darn sleepy..don't know why cause i had alot of sleep during the night..i feel the a/c does got me so :S ..i ainno

:: Bigjoe @ 8:59 PM :: | ::
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Life is pretty much stagnating here for me right now...nothing really to look forward to when the day begins to tell the truth...other than me actually be thankful for seeing another day everyrthing else seems pretty slow and manotonous. Job is fine but the same old same old, but my major problem is with my car..i wanna fix up the red bitch and get a 4age for her (evil smile here pls..hehe)..but that smile quickly fades away cause my so n' so parents on my case bout it cause i supposed to be leaving the rock soon from now..but to tell the truth i still gotta drive something when i on vacation, true? not to mention no car=no free movement. now THAT is a horror. no freedom for bigjoe (me shakes head sadly). I have a gearbox, some webbers and 2 4age's there waiting on me..either 1 waiting impatiently to capture my heart..but alas i may have to sell my old girl..if only i could keep it and do my own thing so i could got my rear wheel drive tarmac terror..but those dreams going down the drain..so just now if u wunna see me driving i would be driving the purple(bleh) accent ...front wheel drive sucks ass( sorry folks..no hard feelings :D ).
Personally now..life isn't so hot there either..seems a bit stagnant there also..alot of miniscule fustration continuously would occur and would build up into something bigger..doesn't that seem to be the case of everything in life..as i always say..such is life. To be honest there are times i feel like just being wicked and not responding to anything..u know..being 'own way' as the old ppl reason ..cause i tend to be some1 who prefers to work out stuff don't mind i have a pretty hot head...but when the same things keep coming up i tend to just ignore it and that's how things get worse..ignoring stuff never seems to work apparently. sigh

Anyways i gone boh..i taking up too much space..I'll never forget the big red monster(according to the fellas)

:: Bigjoe @ 3:26 PM :: | ::
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