:: Bigjoe's World (Not Elmo's) ::

:: Wednesday, May 14, 2003 ::

2day a girl at work was dropping comments that made me believe that she likes me...not to every1, this girl is really retarded so i think she would like a banana tree and get way with it (doesn't say much for me nuh) sigh..i know
Anyways i realising recently that I'm drawing more and more attention..don't get me wrong, i don't mind it but i'm definitely not accustomed to it..matter of fact i was payed little or no attention by females when i was younger, except for the good friend who cried for hours with me on the phone line about their man..i was a bitch for punishment. Now it seems some girl/ woman always dropping lil hints or jarring me like meat..i starting to feel cheap. my word i know how women feel now..thing is u all got it worse. Point is i don't mind the change, i honestly love it..cause uh nigga gotta be appreciated for who he is and what he got sometimes..

It leads to the point...do they see the mind or the body? i honestly like ppl wanting to be around me for me..but to be around me to touch me :S..fail..i aint the touchy type..but hey why complain if the females wanna be all over me right..jokes..i complaining cause i aint nuh piece a meat..kiss me, love me, entertain me but never bite me..Unllleesss ;)
Anyways i rambling so i done talking shite..i know that but frig it when yuh got more than 1 personality in there yuh would confuse your ownself...

:: Bigjoe @ 8:05 PM :: | ::
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:: Bigjoe @ 9:23 PM :: | ::
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hiyuh man full of green...:S 2day was a good day. work , more work, and just shite talk mixed in for good measure...
gym 2morrow for me boh..i sticking ot my work out program now tho..for real..i usually stop after a month so to relax but recently i've just been in the mood for killing myself :S..i guess because since i started back badminton i can't afford to lose too much weight plus i gotta try and maintain the same size..whatever it is, it feeling good as ass lol

1 thing tho i gotta talk bout..women...i don't waste time trying to figure them out cause i do my own thing..i guess i'm a lil stubborn ( a lil ?!!) and don't carish but i believe id a woman likesu for u it wouldn't matter that much..point is here i know the female species very well..i must say that for sure..but they never cease to amaze me..something's always on their minds or bothering them...and since i'm not the worrying type i have to force myself to get miserable and worry along with the person so as not to make it seem as tho i don't care..when in actual fact i do care..just i don't react the same way..confusing nuh..yes yes i know..i know i fuck up so but i aint ceh :P..leff muh ..but seriously women are more emotional and tend to worry more, and i know this but yet it makes me miserable just dealing with it cause i don't freak out the same way..i'm just a no good man..spus..i gotta work on that..anyways i going hey cause my ass dropping to sleep in front this monitor.practice just got me brek up boh

:: Bigjoe @ 9:13 PM :: | ::
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I neglecting u baby..yes i know :( i'm a bad bad man..boo hoo hoo..i should be shot..
aright i over it now so i going to make this 1 short..i does got too much damn catching up to do tho..for real..

Numero Uno..most girls are sluts..i now remember a girl at work just dotish and foolish as ass and extremely materialistic...girl reason she does only deal wid a man if he willing to spend nuff dollars on her..what is that? prostitution my friends..that's right

numero dos...appreciation is something that most ppl have to beg for..i might sound foolish but i realise i was taking my dog for granted..she's obedient, smells good(lol), protects the family and is my lil sweet ting...but when yuh neglect anything or any1 they tend to treat yuh like shite or diss yuh and my lil sweet ting was dissing my ass recently so i had to diss the phone and or rather incorporate the phone while letting she get a lil excercise and thing..my point is..always let ppl know that u appreciate them..no matter how small they may seem in your life..i always let my friends and my boo know that they are appreciated so i guess i should let the dog know too..right? :S

Anyways i going back in the gym steady now...mondays, wednesdays and saturdays are gym days and tuesdays and thursdays are practice..i should be getting fitter by the day by now man
Speaking of fitness..i played in Badminton Nationals friday.. the first time in over a year and only after starting back for nearly 3 months now..point is i was nervous as tail and i didn't have much confidence in myself but i proved myself wrong in the end.
i played 1 of my best friends andre who is the number 2 in barbados now after i demolished some lil pickneys bout the place lol...anyways point is i lost but i honestly felt good losing to him because it showed me that i was alot better than i thought..and i gave him a good running for his money too..so this has only inspired me to work even harder now..even coaches and ppl watching were cheering me on and saying how surprised they were to see me playing like that.. :) i felt good inside..raise the bar there a notch Bruce..let the beast come out.

MOzZyMan out ..

:: Bigjoe @ 8:58 PM :: | ::
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